i have painted my loneliness white;
make no mistake.
it hides itself beneath my skin
and if i try very hard i do not see it.
only in the quiet moments.
you are a teacher
in the art of forgetting -
already i have forgotten
how to breathe.
air is as nothing.
you are in my blood.
i need to sleep to wake up but i can't.
you promised to return -
when? when? when?
i miss you.
i saw you today
and the words in my mouth
blew away with the leaves.
you whispered loving artifice
against my skin in the stillness -
"¿soy una puta, verdad?"
"sí, eres la puta más linda del mundo."
and i am yours beyond all doubt and reason;
only say that you will return.
i will wait here
so that you may seek me
if only in the quiet moments.
I love the idea of the lonliness hiding, it's a brilliant analagy and one that many people will have felt. Those moment where you realise that you had managed to forget your sorrow for just a little while, yet it still returns when you are alone and quite. It's not often I see work where the writer does not just focus on how pain can swallow you completely and forgets that some people have to work through it and do. Once again well done, its fantastic to see.
Finally I love the juxtapose between the (spanish?) and the english. Unless the reader has looked in the artist notes, or knows Spanish this phrase would remain a mystery to them. The slightly crude language adds a demention of reality to the work, though I'm not saying all relationships are surronded by such wording.
You have created both a personal piece but also one that can be applied to many people. I really enoyed reading it and I look forward to maybe seeing some more of your work in the future.
*I can't actually use critique so I just used a comment, hope that still works and you find some use in this review*
Thank you so very much for taking the time to read and comment, it really does mean a lot to me.
Mind if I ask what's got you feeling like that?